Throwing down the gauntlet…?

If you are ina negotiation with twenty seven countries and you hold no cards, and it is in everyone’s best interest to isolate you so you can be asset stripped and brought to heel, and they haven’t had to play a single card because you did all the work for them, how can you throw down the gauntlet? I think they call it chucking in the towel. Which at this stage in negotiations is probably best. Let the winds of fate whip up cos we have no strategy for exiting this situation and the culture at the heart of things can’t do a single thing but make it worse…



Financial instability is due. Brexit is a cock up and a bit and I reckon you’ll be able to get a flat in Canary Wharf soon, free with a cup of coffee. I think this quarter should be interesting and I hope am wrong, and we get to Christmas and the only instability is flood warnings and taht which women create.

Worst case scenario?

Worst case scenario with gender ideology is that politics, media and academic disciplines that can’t see women, take control of them, remove their ability to address male violence and protect their children. And we are all working to avoid it. Except that already happened, and noone noticed, and the process we are now in is of the women who think this is the worst case scenario finding out it already happened in plain sight. That requires those women to move from object status to person status. That is clearly taking a while. The key change with CSE now, is not that public are aware of grooming, its that they are aware those girls were people. Thats the process we have to go through. The millions of women under the bell jar at the centre of this have to be exposed as existing. THat’s it really. All this fuss cos that was so difficult.

So now we have system failure which will drive crisis, a movement, a political force dying, and those women. And we move to the centre of this crisis and we find out what the barriers really are between women being enfranchised and not.

Dear Nell Stockton,

I am doing this so you can’t accuse anyone of tribalism. The terfs you have in your head are a delusion, they are a mirror of your own disorder. Because you are a disordered abusive male. You attended the Woman’s Place Todmorden meeting, you were made extremely welcome. You were GIVEN the stage over other women, and you used it to waffle and to display your narcissism and emotionally manipulative and abusive tendencies, you used an example of male violence to explain to women why they were cold hearted for discussing the EXISTING rule of law around safeguarding and equality legislation. You immediately left, you had already threatened to ‘expose’ the location of a small town meeting of women because you wanted those women to know you could expose them to violence and threats if they did not do what you said. You left that meeting, and you immediately defamed Ruth Serwotka, and even though I do not like the culture she is from, your defamation of her showed you up as a mentally disturbed male who seeks to harm women.

You did this because your mental disorder means you feel irrationally angry when women meet. You did this because you believe that the safeguarding contained in Working Together and the Children Act is hate speech and a threat to your identity. Our safeguarding and protections from male violence ARE a threat to your identity. Because you are a mentally unwell abusive male who poses risk to women. You and your friend Toni Harrison are being honest when you say you are threatened by women existing independently frm you, meeting to discuss the rule of law and when you state that safeguarding and protection from male violence are hateful to you. You are to be taken at face value. As what you are. Mentally unwell males who have difficulty with boundaries, with recognising women exist independently from them and who behave threateningly when women show there are boundaries you cannot cross.

Thank you for your demonstration Nell but we didn’t need it. We already knew. Now you need to see a psychologist about your inability to cope with women existing independently from you, your lack of insight into clearly demonstrated abusive behaviour patterns and you appear to have constructed a false identity for yourself which makes you a risk to the people who are the object of your identity. Women. It’s not women’s fault we remind you who you are, and nor do you have the right to keep taking it out on them. The connection you imagine to women is in your head and women do not have to pretend they perceive you as anything but an abusive male and you are certainly not entitled to either their solidarity, their association or to demand that laws and systems which protect women from men like you be liquidated because you have no insight into your behaviour.

I don’t really like Ruth Serwotka that much but you owe her an apology and you need to stay away from women and children until you develop insight into your behaviour patterns and discuss them with a psychologist instead of imposing them on women.

Prophetic ability?

I do not have phrophetic ability. I am trained to assess situations where unequal power relations are driving criiss and if you give me a crisis shaped by that, something preventing it being addressed, and the institutional context, I can do an assessment and I can identify the sources of crisis and barriers to it being addressed and assess the state’s responsibility. This is nothing more than a means of developing systems analysis and is more commonly known as social work assessment. It’s just that I didnt get six weeks and a sliver of information for this, I was in the middle of the abusive reflex, it was directly related to our institutional functioning, and the left landed on my head as our mediating class and I thought I was attending a university who already knew this, it turns out I attended during the early stages of the crisis which would teach them that this is something the state has to do. The ONLY reason I knew what was happening was because I was trained to. Unfortunately noone told me that training would equip me to read the failure of a political economy and would piss everyone off. I didnt know being a working class woman rendered me invisible enough to do that assessment. If i was an oxbridge posh bloke, these skills would be useful to someone. No prophesy here, just working off observation, chronology and identification of reflexes driving crisis. This is the reflective tool I use instead of case notes. That’s it. A party trick that I never dreamed would be used for this.

Amusing thought re: Guardian

A newspaper culture whose entire being is wrapped around the notion that people should be defined by what they read and rejected from civilised society for reading the ‘wrong’ paper, is preparing quite the epitaph for itself. I have a feeling in five years ‘I read the Guardian’ be as toxic a statement as ‘I vote BNP’ sometimes..Shame they are locking in the rot in our democracy in the meantime.

Women dont have penises

Women don’t have penises. The sentence that tore open our political economy. Except the question at stake was never whether women have penises. It was about whether in a democracy academic and political institutions can just decide that women have no boundaries, no rights, do not exist, and should be shaped by others perceptions of them. The heart of neo liberal welfare policyt and economics in fact. It went fascist. Academic disciplines, media and politics institutions, but they didn’t know. Their lack of insight into the dynamics of the istuation is the scariest thing about it. These people think they are good. They don’t know. They identify as fighting fascism which given how identifying as a woman and a socialist turns out should worry everyone.

Unspeakable things

The unspeakable thing since 2010 has been that the law applies to me too. I didn’t know it was unspeakable, assumed there had been a mistake. Turns out no. We are in the crisis that corrects the understanding of that rule of law and I am not to speak. I cant have a conversation online, not really, not without attracting attention wishing to harm. I dont know how to rationalise being hated by so many people I don’t know, I don’t know how to rationalise that what the state taught me is a threat to the state and to all political parties and to academic institutions. I felt like this at the LSE. To realise the scale of the institutions standing between you and the rule of law even applying to you. Eight years of this. Because I said that the law applied even when I leave my husband. Eight years.

I am supposed to ignore the same patterns repeating and the same marginalisation repeating, and just accept its that stage of crisis. I feel bitter about it. Bitter is the word.

I suppose we are in the middle of it…

..and te way it will look when we look back will be different. It comes in waves, the dissonance around trans rights activism is falling and women are properly geared up for the GRA review which is fucking excellent. This stage of the crisis should do several things. One it shows women as a political force, two it exposes the power dynamics that shape the rule of law and highlights that safeguarding is not dispensible. Three it shows which institutions are not aware of the rule of law, which I already kind of knew but is exciting nonetheless. Am assuming the next stage is that the crisis provides the spark which spreads ripples to expose wider problems. Already we have started a war in higher education, political parties and media scalps linked to this are numerous and across party lines, now the ripples have to move inward to policy making to expose how deep it goes. I don’t know what comes next, it’s kind of like each stage of crisis peels away some of the fog and we are getting somewhere near the point where the central nub is exposed.

I think the key to understanding the rest of it might be intersectionality and invisibility. Whats happening with the nascent movement forming is good. Its not just vehicles which can be co-opted. I have no doubt Ruth Serwotka and John McDonell are eyeing up to using WPUK but even if they do there are hundreds of women involved and even if they manage it its only one piece of machinery geared up to preventinng women discussing political consensus, we have established more. Its a seed. We have established a seed and am not entirely sure that the women at the heart of it know yet what they are in the middle of. Its international, and this is the crisis that should expose the nub of the problems in our political economy, but the events have to be significant enough to push other places and that’s worrying.

We are not out of the firing line for the threat of fascism and thats for sure and the TRA stuff is in essence neo liberalism going fascist and women standing up to it. May is catastrophic. There is no other word, she is catastrophic and her only saving grace is the ability to keep getting up and plodding along and making it through this, which may in fact be what we need but Brexit has been fucked up. There is no getting away from the message we have sent to the world or the cost. Westminster are still locked in displacement activity.

I am tired. Very. I joined Mumsnet and posted, that was a mistake. I can’t use an internet forum. That’s quite weird. I can’t even speak publicly without narcissists swarming to gaslight and abuse. Am trying to normalise it but its getting difficult to explain why i am still unemployed, that I am not even allowed to speak publicly without being abused is extraordinary. Apparently that I am twitter famous justifies it, except I’m not and have gone out of my way for eight years to avoid being a public figure and turned down everything associated, I never was twitter famous. I was just a mum tweeting while a political culture used a chatroom to commit suicide. Quite the view is the intersection between the rule of law and our mediating class at this time. I sometimes feel elated that I was right and the nub of this crisis will allow consolidation of rights for women and Looked After Children, like its sat on a table waiting to be grabbed and so far only I can see it and there are layers of crisis to go through. Its clear that I am on the fringes of the movement elite women want and they will want a movement that does not address the changes I am concerned with. I spoke to Dr.Nic last night and she said I was accidentally barred from the Fair Play page. I never quite understood the bell jar analysis till recently but it is like being stood under the bell jar waiting. Its likely that the same power relations will reproduce around each stage of movement forming and each time the same crisis will recur for the same reason. The tension between the left and women has to be brought into relief, and that will play out within whatever movement is forming. But we are at the nub of it. British women. We are at the nub of something which is only just forming and I don’t think a lot of the people involved have any idea how big this is going to get. Or how many institutions crumble when they are faced with our reality and us saying no. Am not sure how many are prepared for the institutional blow back. I am not. I am not prepared for Brexit either. We have to walk into an earthquake and be who we are at the centre of it. Interesting times.