It is not normal to fantasise about harming women. It is not normal to believe women should be punched, raped, or killed, if they refuse to validate you. It is not normal to believe that a woman writing a report at work years ago, means women are responsible for murder. It is not normal to look at murders committed by men and believe those crimes are a reason to hurt women. These things are not normal if you are man, they are not normal if you are a woman. They are a sign you are very seriously unwell and pose a risk to people.